It’s almost funny how psychopaths are the givers of “gifts” that just keep on giving us more “gifts.” Gifts of fear, anxiety, pain etc. Patrick has given me a new “gift” by filing a BOGUS complaint against my attorney with the Texas Bar Association.
I guess I was responsible for him finding out about my attorney and that I was indeed protesting his parole. When things are on the internet they are there forever, and my “coming out” and being more open about my protests of his parole release (which has kept him in prison) he or one of his friends googled me and found my attorney’s name.
The details of his bogus complaint aren’t really important, but they made me feel guilty that my attorney who has become a friend as well as an attorney, a man who “gets” what a psychopath is, is having to go through all the hoops to defend himself against this bogus charge.
I have spoken with the attorney who is representing him, and he assures me that my friend and attorney will not be disbarred because of this bogus complaint. I have filed my affidavit attesting to the fact that Patrick is lying through his teeth. If necessary I will go to Texas to testify for my attorney who is a well-respected and honorable man. He specializes in getting inmates released on parole, but he refuses to work for a psychopath, and he has enough sympathy for me that he does the job almost pro bono. He told me in one of our phone conversations, “Your son is a baaaaaad man.” Yep, he got that right.
It’s always stressful preparing for the up coming parole hearing and getting my protest packet prepared. Last time I melted down emotionally and actually had to go back to trauma therapy my fear and anxiety got so bad, but I’m not going to let that happen this time. I’m emotionally prepared to field a great protest because I know that my son is a stone cold killer, without remorse for taking the life of a 17 year old girl just because she ratted him out for stealing her grandfather’s credit card.
Responding positively, not negatively, to triggers I think comes with practice. When I found out about the complaint to the bar, I “exploded” with anger, but it didn’t last long, a couple of hours of verbal venting, and it was done and over. I was able to “talk myself down” and to start acting, NOT “RE-acting” to the situation.
Realizing how I became negatively triggered by the last parole protest, I have become more aware as I prepare for this one, and am determined to keep myself in check and not be overcome with fear and anxiety about him getting out.
As we are associated with psychopath, we know that time does NOT heal all wounds, but in spite of that we can take care of our own emotions and our own mental health and live a life that is filled with PEACE and not allow them to keep on giving us their negative gifts.